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Saturday, August 1, 2015

memoir | "I Take You As Awful Husband"

Slip of tongue or Freudian slip ? It was definitely a prediction, when repeating after the Boston judge, I said "awful" instead of "lawful".

Very sadly, with profound pain, I remember that day and what came after: humiliations, bullying, financial control, greed, narcissism, coupled with shunning from his family whose greed had manipulated him for all his life . And in the past year the discovery that honesty, the only positive value which I believe belonged to him. was gone.

I have very little good memories of this relationship, which are overwhelmed now by his last coward act, putting our daughter's well being in the hand of a greedy divorce attorney whose only interest is to make as much profit as possible from our pain.

And somehow I feel sorry for him; even if dangerous, he is ultimately a coward, desperately looking for attention.

Looking onwards and upwards.

Sunday, May 10, 2015

Thoughts | Celebrating By Not Celebration

"Family" holidays have always been difficult for me, at least since when I moved to the US, as an immigrant without community and unwelcomed by my husband's family. But in the past year holidays have been particularly challenging, when my still legal spouse left me with our daughter after over two decades. I don't miss him considering the almost constant emotional, verbal and mental abuse I was subjected too. Neither I miss his elitist, privileged and uncompassionate family. But his departure brought to the surface two decades of pain, anger and neglect.

Mother's day unfortunately does not escape from this pain and while my thoughts are for my ill mother, Gabriella, and still dealing with my husband's mental cruelty and effort to separate me from my daughter Zoe even in this day.

I would like to share a few thoughts inspired by my effort to live through this difficult day, which I am sure I am not the only to experience in emotional pain —although all the cheerful materialistic celebrations.

There is no need for flowers or chocolate: a peace of mind and kindness are the most valuable gifts.

Take time for a quiet prayer or meditation, a simple dance movement, or listening to your favorite music. Or a walking meditation.

Escape the pressure of this day by reminding yourself of your beauty as a woman, daughter, mother.

Celebrate yourself.

Sunday, February 16, 2014

Public Art | The Phoenix Project at St. John the Divine

Views of the Cathedral of Saint John the Divine from Amsterdam Avenue

The Phoenix Project by the Chinese artist Xu Bing

Saturday, June 1, 2013

Events | NYC, The Interactive New York

The Interactive New York, a multimedia public art installation at Pier 57 by artist Garson Yu featuring a special performance in collaboration with DJ Spooky

Saturday, May 11, 2013

Vernissages | NYC, Paul McCarthy's 'Sculptures' and 'Life Casts'

From the opening night at Hauser & Wirth

and from the Hudson waterfront

Photo courtesy of David Foell

Thursday, May 9, 2013

Art Fairs | New York, Pulse Preview

I asked David to take a few pics from the Pulse preview, just to get again into the "art and culture" landscape, before this blog becomes a palm tree portraiture. The photos show the usual NY art fair commercial mishmash, some more interesting than the typical gimmicks found in commercial art, yet good energy and...

New York, New York I miss you so much!